So here we are, January 2nd and it's my first session at a new "gym". I've got all kinds of emotions, thoughts, and apprehensions going on, but I have to do it. It's my goal. I don't want to say it's my New Year's Resolution....it sounds so cliche and unoriginal. But the truth is, I'm going to be 40 in 6 months. I DO NOT want to look the way I do at 40. So I have 6 months to get to where I feel better about myself.
GOALS!!
So here's some background about me. I'm 39. Married for 17 years with 2 sons. I'm blessed in more ways I can count. I'm an educator. I was a teacher for 14 years until I decided that I needed a break from the classroom I got my master's in Library Science and now I'm in my 4th year as a certified librarian. I get the luxury of still working with children and getting my creativity back in the library lessons I do. I love my job.
On the other hand, I suffer from anxiety and depression and have gradually gained weight over the years. I was always the skinny girl in school. However, looking back at pictures, I could see that I was too skinny. I had the visible ribs, sunken eyes, long thin neck. I wouldn't want to be there again. I'd be happy with weighing between what I weighed then and what I weigh now.
So I decided that I wanted a personal trainer. Who would've thought PTs were so expensive. I guess that's what happens when you're out of the "training" loop for....oh...ever!!
I did join a personal training group which is significantly less than a PT, and I still get the luxuries of meeting with a nutritionist once a week and weighing in. The truth is that I NEED that accountability. I NEED someone to answer to that isn't someone I know. It's easy for me to make excuses or be too "tired" or "not have enough time." Because the truth is, I DO have enough time and I may be tired, but it's because of my sedentary lifestyle diet.
So, today was the day I made it to my first nutritionist appointment and meet with a PT. This is how I know that I won't be able to afford it. Too expensive. I was weighed in and I am at my heaviest ever!! I weigh more now than I did when I was pregnant. I know I'm not the heaviest person at the gym, but in my mind I am.
So today I'm writing this blog to hold myself accountable. I want to feel good in my own skin. I want to weigh less. I want to drop dress sizes and yes I want to be healthy too!
So here goes nothing...
My STATS:
Age: 39
Height: 5'6"
Weight: 221
I can't believe that I've just published this information to the world!! But it's so that I can keep the promise to myself that I am going to do this. I won't quit this time like I did 100 times before. My goal is June 24...my 40th birthday. I'm going to buy a fabulous outfit and feel awesome at 40!!
My next gym date is on Wednesday. See you then!! Maybe I'll post a pic if I'm brave enough!!
P.S. Don't be fooled my my profile pic. That was taken years ago!! :)
