Day 1

So here we are, January 2nd and it's my first session at a new "gym".  I've got all kinds of emotions, thoughts, and apprehensions going on, but I have to do it.  It's my goal.  I don't want to say it's my New Year's Resolution....it sounds so cliche and unoriginal.  But the truth is, I'm going to be 40 in 6 months.  I DO NOT want to look the way I do at 40.  So I have 6 months to get to where I feel better about myself.
GOALS!!

So here's some background about me.  I'm 39.  Married for 17 years with 2 sons.  I'm blessed in more ways I can count.  I'm an educator.  I was a teacher for 14 years until I decided that I needed a break from the classroom  I got my master's in Library Science and now I'm in my 4th year as a certified librarian. I get the luxury of still working with children and getting my creativity back in the library lessons I do.  I love my job.

On the other hand, I suffer from anxiety and depression and have gradually gained weight over the years.  I was always the skinny girl in school.  However, looking back at pictures, I could see that I was too skinny. I had the visible ribs, sunken eyes, long thin neck.  I wouldn't want to be there again.  I'd be happy with weighing between what I weighed then and what I weigh now.

So I decided that I wanted a personal trainer.  Who would've thought PTs were so expensive.  I guess that's what happens when you're out of the "training" loop for....oh...ever!!

I did join a personal training group which is significantly less than a PT, and I still get the luxuries of meeting with a nutritionist once a week and weighing in.  The truth is that I NEED that accountability.  I NEED someone to answer to that isn't someone I know.  It's easy for me to make excuses or be too "tired" or "not have enough time."  Because the truth is, I DO have enough time and I may be tired, but it's because of my sedentary lifestyle diet.

So, today was the day I made it to my first nutritionist appointment and meet with a PT.  This is how I know that I won't be able to afford it.  Too expensive.  I was weighed in and I am at my heaviest ever!! I weigh more now than I did when I was pregnant.  I know I'm not the heaviest person at the gym, but in my mind I am.

So today I'm writing this blog to hold myself accountable.  I want to feel good in my own skin.  I want to weigh less.  I want to drop dress sizes and yes I want to be healthy too!
So here goes nothing...
My STATS:
Age:  39
Height:  5'6"
Weight:  221

I can't believe that I've just published this information to the world!! But it's so that I can keep the promise to myself that I am going to do this.  I won't quit this time like I did 100 times before.  My goal is June 24...my 40th birthday.  I'm going to buy a fabulous outfit and feel awesome at 40!!
My next gym date is on Wednesday.  See you then!! Maybe I'll post a pic if I'm brave enough!!

P.S.  Don't be fooled my my profile pic. That was taken years ago!! :)